On Meth: All you 19-year-old experts on nothing oughta STFU and learn how to stop sounding like retarded ebonics class dropouts

Is everybody that posts here between 15-20? Sure sounds that way. Maybe you bunch of wannabes should move out of Mommy and Daddy's house and see what living like how you're trying to sound like you live is really all about. I'll tell you right now, I'm 34 years old and have been a moderate to heavy meth user since around the time lots of you were born (1992). I grew up in southern Oregon, ten miles from the California border. Meth has been the drug of choice around here for almost 30 years. The mainstream media focuses on negative aspects of meth addiction that aren't applicable to all meth users. I am very well educated and actually about 50 pounds overweight, which is not that uncommon among long time meth users. My teeth are also excellent despite smoking around .5 gram daily. They have no black or other signs of meth mouth. That's because I brush them twice a day. What I have never heard anyone tell about meth addiction is that in the beginning, it is very difficult to make the right decisions in your life concerning education, relationships, and how you will progress into a productive, happy adult.

I had the world by the balls when I graduated high school (I snorted meth every day during my junior and senior year). My SAT and AZVAB (the test the military administered to high schoolers to find the next Oppenheimer) scores were among the top 99.5% in the nation. I scoffed at the Navy recruiter even though I was offered the opportunity to enlist straight into the nuclear sub program, which only 1 in every 40,000 enlistees is offered. Instead I chose to take a scholarship at one of the West Coast's top three technical colleges. I majored in Vascular Imagery and was poised for great things. Between graduation and the fall term of my freshman year, I started smoking crank instead of snorting it. The high was very nice and the addiction was extreme. Anyway, my addiction path led me to drop out of college after only 2 terms. I worked in my family's businesses and sold drugs steadily for the next four years. The longer you use meth, the more accustomed you become to its high. In other words, you still stay up and endless energy, you just don't have the euphoria you once did. Life becomes very dull and unrewarding during abstinence periods.

Since I was 16yrs old (18 yrs ago) I haven't been off meth more than 6 months at a time, and maybe only three times have I quit for that long. Long time addicts are extremely dependent on meth to function. I honestly think the addiction is much stronger and the withdrawals last much longer than heroin. I would tell anyone considering meth to first ask yourself what your reasonable expectations from life are. If you are not too bright, or have little aspiration to accomplish goals which require you be mentally and physically at your peak on most days, I would say give it a try and see what you think. But if you have reason to expect or extreme determination to achieve more from your future than the majority of our population, then stay the fuck away from it! People make decisions early in life (16-17) that will effect the rest of their lives. And nobody that age is far enough along in their self control and discipline to fuck around with meth. Sadly to say, if your parents are addicts and you've been around it most of your life, you will be either very against it and do your all to stay away from it, or you will be an addict at an early age and probably end up in the joint. I was smart enough to learn after my second meth case (PCS and DCS of 35 grams) to be careful and be smart. Back then, in early '98, everyone wasn't hellbent on locking up every addict out there.

Anyway, after my son was born in late 1999, I decided to stop dealing the drug and to work on quitting. Well neither was as easy as I had anticipated, and I finally stopped selling in 2004 and have had a good understanding and reasonably good self control over my sickness since 2006. Meth is a deceptively unique drug in that even when you are in the midst of self-destructing, you have every confidence in the world that everything will be just fine. Take the drug away and many addicts begin to come to terms with just how shitty their lives have become because of meth. But given the chance to get high, every one of the thousands I have met will jump at the chance and be your best friend until tomorrow if you get them tweaked. As for the notion that meth is expensive, I have to disagree. No other drug I know of can compare to the longtime high and value for the dollar of crystal. I mean, lots of new users can stay fucked up for a couple days on $20 worth of quality product.

Like I said earlier, I go through roughly an eight-ball (3.5g) a week. That's $150. And if I were to sell just 1 gram in small increments (called pointing it out, or selling point for point), I would end up with 2.5g or more for $50. I could easily cut the stuff in half because I get top quality shards from vatos that don't fuck around. I am too paranoid to sell shit anymore because the meth game ain't like it was 15 years ago. Now everyone that gets popped with a half gram gets pinched into wearing a wire during a controlled buy. The more I discuss this shit, the more I long for the nineties...when everyone wasn't out to bust tweakers and dope cost $2500-$3000 a pound. Everyone in my circle had a pound of two or three different colors and flavors.

Well, there you have it. Take what you want out of it or don't. I'm out cuz my bubble is empty and I need to quit typing before I load another chunk.